on the wings of antici ...

wait for it ... PATION!!!!

I'm getting very antsy for this coming weekend. It's the 6th annual Disneyland Half Marathon and my 2nd year running it. This year my goal is to finish the race in 3 hours and receive my Coast 2 Coast medal! I'll receive that medal when I complete this race cause I also completed a race earlier this year in Walt Disney World: Princess Half Marathon!

Ok...time out...I know my last entry said I was going to do a trip report on my recent venture to Seattle with my coworkers. Well, I lied ... but not intentionally! Things just got busy with work and running that I haven't taken the time to write about it. There are pics up on my FB and Flickr account, so just look there and you'll see all the fun we had!

And ... time in! I do plan on keeping this blog updated with this weekend's festivities, though it may be short and sweet posts. There's tons to do in only a 3 day trip! See friends and family, go on at least Space Mountain (very high priority!), run a 5k, run a half marathon, have my celebratory strawberry ice cream from the Gibson Girl on Main Street in Disneyland after completing the half, and finally ... ride Space Mountain again!!!!

Better get to sleep now. Have another regular 12 hour workday tomorrow and want to get some rest.

Have I mentioned how excited I am? :-)

SPACE MOUNTAIN!!!!!!

Coming soon ... trip report

I got back home a few hours ago from an overnight trip to Seattle.  It was an all expenses paid trip with everyone at work and their significant others ... well, two of us didn't bring anyone, so there was a total of eight people.  We went to the Seattle Mariners vs Boston Red Socks game Friday night and then did a bit of shopping/exploring this morning before taking the train back home.  I'm a bit tired right now, so I'm going to crawl into bed.  But I plan on posting a more extensive report about my trip up north tomorrow.  Pictures and all! 

wordless wednesday

Words added 08/26/11: You can get the backpack at the Disney parks, but I got mine through Amazon.  This is my costume for the 2011 Disneyland 5k over Labor Day weekend! 

They also have a Chewbacca backpack :-)

The tortoise and the hare ...

Tuesdays have become one of my favorite days. It's cause I know when the clock says 5 p.m. I'm out the door! I work a lot, you see, and leaving at that time is very rare for me. But every Tuesday I have track workouts at a local high school and it starts at 5:30 and it takes me about a half hour with traffic and parking to get there.
Anyways, I've been going to track for quite a few months now and have come to accept the fact that I'm the slow one. I'm always the last one done and am usually passed by my fellow track runners quite a bit. I've been okay with that cause I'm still new to the running thing and eventually one day I plan on being faster then I am now and hopefully not the last across the finish line.
Today though I forgot to keep my reminders in my mind, ignore Lefty (left side of my brain, and focus on my running only. This is because 4 new people showed up and ran a pretty fast speed. Even with newbies I was still the slowest. I need to block that out. I need to concentrate on my goals.
I felt good after track tonight, but since I've been home for the last hour, I've grown sad. I had a recent death in the family, found out a friend also experienced the same thing, and I really miss talking to a certain person. I'm thinking we're on two totally different pages in completely different books. Perhaps something will change, but for now, I wait.

wait, what?! huh?!

I got distracted, which made me lose focus, and that led to the self-doubt and self-hate talk creep back in and latch on. That's my guess as to why Saturday's run was brutal for me and I just wanted to stop. I pushed myself through it and even though I walked for about 5 miles, I still completed a 19 mile route.

BUT I have to regain control. At this moment I'm okay with not "having a life". I'm okay with my schedule being work and running only. I'm okay that my only day to sleep is Sunday. I'm okay with this because I need to be. I need to complete these goals. I need to show myself that I can accomplish an impossible goal I've set for myself.

No more distractions. That's not to say I will forfeit the activities I have planned in the next few months ... no way! Just means that certain distractions need to stop and I'm not going to allow them to tear me down again.

My motto this year is:

"I am the only me there is, and I'm worth the time, effort and dedication necessary to succeed."

The pain and sweat that running has made me go through is what I've been needing for quite sometime to feel good about myself. Clothes that were snug or too tight to fit/wear before are now loose and comfortable on me! I've come a long way and nobody, not even me, is gonna make me stray from the course I'm taking.