motivation ... or lack thereof

Not sure if it's from working long hours at work 6 to 7 days a week and not having a vacation since the beginning of December 2009, but right now, my motivation is zero.  In fact, I think its probably in the negative digits area.  I still get some work done, but it's definitely not at the "giving it all I got, Capt'n" spectrum.  I'm thankful I have a boss who sees all the work I have done and goes easy on me, with moments of "don't make me beat you" emails.  She also confessed to me last night that she feels the same.  Motivation? what's that again?  Everyday I wake up and say, "this is it.  this is the day that I'm gonna get my stuff together and plow through all these files and papers sitting on my desk". 

One major factor in my lack of moto is social networking ... Plurk, Twitter, Facebook, etc.  All of these distract me and I find myself just staring at my computer screen and not getting much done.  It's gotta stop.  I've said a few times that I'm going to go on hiatis from these sites, but continue to take maybe a break for a few hours, but then I'm back in full force.  Sigh. 

So, as my friend Ryan has said, today is the day...not tomorrow, not the start of the week, but today.  It has to be.  I need it to be.  I don't care if my crops wither or I don't get tons of eggs or cards or presents on a virtual game.  And if I have to MAAR then I have to MAAR ... not to be confused with MAR, cause that is different.  I am terrible at self-discipline.  Just look at me ... yes, I know you can't, but if you could and knew the thoughts in my head, you'd know. 

I'll keep up with my blog and all, but in 20 minutes (only cause I gotta finish typing this and post it), I'm going to try to ... no, that's not right .. I'm going to DO my best and not be online except for after work and on the weekends.  Cause you know wise Yoda did say, "Try not.  Do.  Or do not.  There is no try" 

Take care everyone! and keep me posted on all your happenings ^__^