Quite a few times I will read, watch or listen to something that at the moment I just take it in and don't really comment, but later think back on it and realize I was and still am struck with mixed emotions with what I stumbled across. It's like I need to step back, process, think before reacting, weigh my thoughts and then write it down or talk about it to really figure things out. This recently occurred to me after reading a blog post a friend of mine wrote. I do my best not to put down, or talk behind one of my family members back to a great multitude of people. I have close friends that I will vent to about something in particular, but I really try my best to hold my tongue. That's not to say it might not occur on occasion and for those times I'm sorry to those I may have hurt. With that said, I'm about to reveal some pretty pent up emotions....this is Holly: Uncut.
So I read said blog post in which they had been reminded of a passage entitled "Father Forgets". At first reading their introduction before getting to the lines of verse I was excited and glad to see that a new father wanted to do his best and be an amazing dad to his little boy. To that I applaud you! When he gets older he will definitely appreciate you taking the time wanting to be a part in his life.
I then began reading the passage and afterwards discovered I was both saddened and angered at what I had read. This was due to the fact that I felt slighted on having a positive father in my life. I'm sad that I don't have many father-daughter moments and upset at the things recently said to me by this man. How dare you make me feel not good enough! How dare you make me feel that I'm not worth anything! How dare you tell me to my face that since one of your other children wants nothing to do with you that there is no point in living! I feel like an idiot for allowing you to tell me that and not sticking up for myself at that moment! Yes it's terrible that we've all been pushed away, but sometimes in life people make choices that may be difficult to take but there are sone of us that wish you would see us just as valuable.
Father Forgets is a must read for any parent ... so, go! read it! learn from it!
I'm thankful for a select few men that have been present throughout my life that have filled some of the void and even more grateful for being blessed with a mom that made me feel and know unconditional love!
So to all you dads out there...take time for each of your kids. We all matter and all need to feel special and loved.
